I feel desperate and hopeless, please give your opinion., is my situation very bad?

ok I don't mean to offend you but I think the fact that you are "desperate" is your problem. You are probably an atractive interesting lady but no one wants to be with someone desperate and you can tell when someone is. I think you need to concentrate on your hobbies, go out with friends and start enjoying life, you are likely then to meet a man.If you don't want to live with you why would a man.